here's wad i was up to the past few days...

#1 my brothers DRUNK!
title: Gerald & de Dustbin


title: Nelson Dead Drunk


to yuan jie
wahahaha you lucky this time
i forgot to take a photo of you when you were drunk
nevermind got chance de =D

#2 Gerald Armydaze
title: 2 days more to Army
(p.s. thats Gerald on the left
and ignore the more handsome one on the right)


title: 1 day before Army


title: 1st day in Army


to Gerald
take care bro in the army
chiong, chiong, chiong!



Location d'Espoir -
the greatest pleasure of a dog
is that you may make a fool of yourself with him
and not only will he not scold you
but he will make a fool of himself too

sometimes if you don’t risk anything, you risk even more
10:19 AM

finally time to sent him off into army
5 days a week without meeting him
no idea how my days would be like

Gerald Nelson and me
we really been through alot
just these few weeks it may have been
but the bond we have created
the trust we have built
will never be easily broken

i'm not sure if you see this
but i'm sorry that i doubt you
i promise it would never happen again
it did not kill us
so it only made us stronger



Location d'Espoir -
Change is the process
by which the future invades our lives

sometimes if you don’t risk anything, you risk even more
7:35 AM

pass 4 in the morning
and i just can't get myself to fall asleep
just ended another mah jiong session (what's new?)
lose money again
thinking of an excuse to tell Gerald now

speaking of which
he has another 2 more days
before his officially loses his 'freedom'
and enter 'adulthood'
i'm sure the intensice feeling must be getting to him
he's feeling rather sick just now

why do i regret my time spent today
waked up 12 noon after a late night drinking session
and Yuan Jie was drunk!
Nelson, Gerald, Yuan Jie and me shared the bed
and everyone slept like a log except for me and Yuan Jie
he kept waking up to vomit
and falling onto the ground too
i had to carry him up haha
but we had fun
thats' most important

back to what i did today
basically
travelling around aimlessly
went to Nelson's house
ate dinner with his parents
and spent the entire evening slacking at his house
erm... not by choice
just that we had no idea what to do

okay
and i should indeed get to sleep soon
i'm wondering who would call me later in the morning
and where would i be going
hope another fun-filled day is coming my way!



Location d'Espoir -
when the night is overcome
one would rise and find the sun

sometimes if you don’t risk anything, you risk even more
4:21 AM

last day at changkat primary
first time i was asked to stay longer by the kids
really had some wonderful kids there
hope that they really learnt something
and would become somebody one day

just reached home
phone's down again
touch screen buttons giving me problems
guess i'll be making a trip down to repair again
still have to go harvey norman
help Gerald get his iPod speaker

now i'm slacking at home
thinking of the wonderful times at changkat primary
pausing awhile at every highlight of the course
will never forget when scold the kid
crying, he shouted "i want a tissue"
made me burst into laughter

Nelson's coming over
Gerald's working till 11pm
i guess i'll head to town later
another late night i guess
since both of them will be staying over

oh well
here's the photo i took
the 2 of them keep hanging onto me


Changkat Primary Superkids
From Left: Shawn, Me, Gary



Location d'Espoir -
i learn to give because
someone has given so much to me
and hopefully someone else will follow
and the cycle of hope will continue...

sometimes if you don’t risk anything, you risk even more
5:06 PM

day 2 at work
changkat changi primary
2 down 1 more day to go

i'm was just listening
now it's stuck in my mind

A Lonely September by Plain White T's
I'm sittin' here all by myself
just tryin' to think of something to do
Tryin' to think of something, anything
just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out
'cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind

[Chorus]
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did

I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself
that you're not the one for me
But the more I think, the less I believe it
and the more I want you here with me
You know the holidays are coming up
I don't want to spend them alone
Memories of Christmas time with you
will just kill me if I'm on my own

[Chorus]
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back

I know it's not the smartest thing to do
we just can't seem to get it right
But what I wouldn't give to have one more chance tonight
One more chance tonight

I'm sittin' here tryin' to entertain myself with this old guitar
But with all my inspiration gone it's not getting me very far
I look around my room and everything I see reminds me of you
Oh please, baby won't you take my hand
we've got nothing left to prove

[Chorus]
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did

And I didn't mean to meet you then
we were just kids
And I didn't mean to give you chills
the way that I kiss
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did
Don't say you didn't love me back 'cause you know you did
No, you didn't mean to love me back
But you did



Location d'Espoir -
a sense of humor
is part of the art of leadership
of getting along with people
of getting things done

sometimes if you don’t risk anything, you risk even more
4:32 PM

it's work for me in like 3 hours time
and i haven got a wee bit of sleep
thinking about how i would feel during work later
just sends shivers down my spine
well but i'll be there

play mahjiong lose again
June so lucky today

i'm lying on my bed now
Gerald and Jasper just left
waited till after 6am just to miss out on the 50% sur-charge

really really hard lots of fun these few days
unhealthy indeed
but 100% pure hard-core fun

always remember a msg i recieved some time ago
it says 'friends are fated to meet one another'
but with these guys
it's more than friends
we are brothers

met up with another group of brothers today
from work - Ben Ong, Yu Yuan, De Jun
shared with me some crazy stuff
what they did during camps that i missed out

really skipped work to accompany Gerald last week
first time in 4 years i never return to office
not even a single day during the secondary school holidays
but i never regretted my actions a single bit

to all my brothers i work with
sorry that i missed out alot guys
i'll make up for them

6 days more to Gerald's holy day
the day he becomes a man
when he 'finally' enters army
for the record I'M NOT GAY
but there was a bond created within these weeks
that make me want to just make time to accompany him everyday
and with everyone else of course - Nelson, June, Nancy, Jasper, Yuan Jie so on so forth

to Gerald, Nelson and gang (you noe who you are)
we may only know one another for less thana month
but the bond created is so so much stronger
like wad Gerald commented 2 weeks ago
'just got the feeling we knew one another for quite some time'
thats how i feel too
i hope you guys enjoyed every single moment i spent with you guys
just like how much i enjoyed mine
thank you for coming into my life
thank you for being my friend brother



Location d'Espoir -
life's like a gamble
you win some, you lose some
just that winning feels so great
while on the other hand
losing... well need i say more?

sometimes if you don’t risk anything, you risk even more
6:17 AM

starting to place my focus back into reality
maybe it's really too much playing these few days
still learning to draw an ending line for my 'unlimited' breaks

have been making many unhealthy expenditures
maybe it's really too much playing these few days
still learning to draw an ending line for my 'unlimited' breaks

late nights these days
getting later and later too
maybe it's really too much playing these few days
still learning to draw an ending line for my 'unlimited' breaks

drinking became a pastime and a hobby i thought i gave up long ago
maybe it's really too much playing these few days
still learning to draw an ending line for my 'unlimited' breaks

okay i'm getting bored here myself
maybe i just care too much
someone just logged into msn
the nick says - stay happy
some advice from above? hope so...



Location d'Espoir -
there are always two sides
where would you choose to stand
what would you choose to see
which would you choose to believe
how would you choose to percieve

sometimes if you don’t risk anything, you risk even more
3:22 PM

second round celebration
BBQ at my house
200 bucks on food
1 bottle of martell cordan blue
1 bottle of chivas
guess what...
gerald's up and walking! wtf

here's at least something i'm happy with


From Left (Top): Hock Seng, Yuan Jie, Nelson, Jasper, Sharon, Nancy
At Centre (Middle): Nicol
From Left (Bottom): Gerald, Me, Da Ee, June



Location d'Espoir -
whatever happens to your day
just relax and manage to make a smile
cause life is not a problem to be solved
but a gift to be enjoyed
make everyday your best day

sometimes if you don’t risk anything, you risk even more
11:52 PM

something i missed out





Location d'Espoir -
Boys will be boys
so will a lot of middle-aged men

sometimes if you don’t risk anything, you risk even more
8:25 PM

another 50 bucks gone
ktv, lousy house pour and mixers
3am in the morning at Suntec City
what a night!

Gerald's here to stay
DVD till 7am in the morning
brothers' chat till pass 9am before we slept
it's work at 3pm for him
and a whole day out shopping for me

now? it's home, having some rest
Nelson's coming over
den heading down mac to look for Gerald

what's the plan?
shh.. no idea... (smiles)



Location d'Espoir -
our time is limited stop wasting it living someone elses' life
don't let the noise of people's opinions drown your own inner voice
most importantly, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition
everything else... might just be secondary

sometimes if you don’t risk anything, you risk even more
8:06 PM

16 bottles of Heineken
5 jars of Orange Vodka
2 jars of Cranberry Vodka
2 jars of Long Island Tea
a whole night of groving and moving to the music


my ZOUK conclusion
From Left (Top): Hock Seng, Gerald, Nelson, Yuan Jie
From Left (Bottom): Sharon, Pinky, Jasper
At Centre (Bottom): Me
Not In Picture: June, Nancy



Location d'Espoir -
The road of life twists and turns
No 2 directions are ever the same
Yet our lessons come from the journey,
not the destination.

sometimes if you don’t risk anything, you risk even more
1:46 PM

it was dinner with Gerald at tampines
den mah jiong at Shawn's house for me
finally I'm back
even his mom said, "long time no see!"

had a great time even though i lost
life's like this - you win a little you lose a little
no complains about that
oh and i managed to meet up with Hoong Kit too

find myself waking early this morning
still have freshmen orientation camp training at school
i guess my schedule of the day is out
it's training till evening (skipped)
collect my phone at orchard
dinner den a zouk outing for Gerald before he gets into army
what a day!



Location d'Espoir -
Most men draw a circle to protect his family and children
Other men draw a bigger circle to include his brothers and sisters
but Some men draw a circle that includes many, many, many more...

sometimes if you don’t risk anything, you risk even more
6:02 AM

espoir de trouvaille means find hope in french
life can be very stressful at times and all i want to do is to create a getaway
not to run away from life itself but a hideout, a place to trouvaille d'espoir

have not been working lately
spending my time taking a little rest off work and school
drinking, going lan and watching movie became a pastime i finally pick up again
off to look for Gerald soon



location d'espoir -
STRESSED? Spell it backwards... DESSERTS!

sometimes if you don’t risk anything, you risk even more
1:48 PM