i don't wanna talk if it makes you feel sad and I understand you've come to shake my hand i apologize if it makes you feel bad seeing me so tense no self-confidence but you see the winner takes it all
BUT TODAY I WIN =D
BIG City Life!!! sometimes i lose bad but at times i win big!!!
sometimes if you don’t risk anything, you risk even more 9:41 PM
Monday, February 22, 2010
huat ar!!! chinese new years' coming to an end and i'm still collecting red packets haha thats good ar
time has been kind on me these days it's passing at a rate where i find myself enjoying the little moments in life and less of the misery of being bored alone guess everyone has their fair share of life
finally i get to enjoy a long weekend taking off than ma tmr the idea of not stepping into camp on monday mmmmm... mama mia! haha oh well i worked my ass off for these offs and i rightfully claiming them tmr!!!
WHAT A WEEKEND!!! saturday was the best la slept through the morning and early afternoon after a night of winnings at jeremy's house on friday spend the evening having another family reunion dinner it was the 7th day of the lunar year, so happy birthday everyone :) and night was ktv and drinks celebrating my cousin's birthday for which i really dunno whether i regret the drinking part at 4am i find myself in a room with 3 drunk ladies and 1 dead drunk army boy oh shit i told myself
sunday started off with disappointments had to cancel the in between session coz most of the peeps couldn't make it and edward broke the news to me! he can't make it coming friday for our genting trip thats after i smartly bought the bus ticket :( oh well, i'm still working on getting jordan to take his place gotta feeling it's working though lol still the call is jordan's to make haha afternoon was meet up with alfee and gang to celebrate his birthday everyone was late (that's as usual) but we ended up getting his birthday present at top man having some simple lunch at pasta mania and finally, yes thank god finally, we watched Percy Jackson & the Lightning Thief not too bad ar... as the night fall came it was to holland road to bai nian at the owner of bangawan solo's house!!! haha got big red packets there ar the best thing was i managed to sing a song in exchange for bird nest where to find such deals haha
For ALAN NGOI i've never met anyone as steady as my brother here we just met last saturday at double and this week when i invite him for another trip there he cancelled his meetings with has friends swapped his duty and was all really for it
sorry brother last minute cancelled the double o plan thanks for everything man we'll be there again soon i promise :)
BIG City Life!!! ANYONE WANNA GO GENTING THIS FRIDAY??? haha
sometimes if you don’t risk anything, you risk even more 12:55 AM
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
wad an aimless day today while not saying that i din have fun though haha
looking forward to 3 weeks of consecutive clubbing at double o hoping everyone i asked along will turn up that day :)
BIG City Life!!! life sucks when you noe you're on duty tmr... haha
sometimes if you don’t risk anything, you risk even more 10:28 PM
Monday, February 15, 2010
a not very willing post that will definitely interest all the people that go clubbing and drinking with me... lol
title: ONCE IN A LIFE TIME (tactically it means this will ONLY happen once)
remember the day i got the hangover?
haha once in a life time man lol
well, everything started quite nicely you noe... haha
everyone looking good :)
till the drinks came... lol
bad mood + empty stomach = massive disaster...
got it brothers haha
wad a once in a life time experience
i noe i will never get that again after this
more clubbing definitely
you noe the saying that goes something like
if you are a lousy drinker den the only thing you can do
is really to start drinking more! haha
time will train you into a better drinker
it's proven trust me haha
continue to enjoy ur NEW YEAR peeps!
BIG City Life!!!
sometimes if you don’t risk anything, you risk even more 9:35 PM
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Happy New Year :)
its chinese new year once again wad i like about it more the fact that i get red packets is that its a time for reunions and new blessings as well as a time for forgiveness and thank yous so much so that i have decided to delicate this entry to some special people that i really have to say some special thank yous to i'm really hoping here that i do not miss anyone out trust me i'm going through my contacts whilst writing this oh and i'm just name the closer ones here so dun go around laughing at people should they not appear in my list k :)
to my brothers, sisters & family friends family: Mom&Dad, MelvinChan, ChanelChan, VianJiang - i can count on coming home each day and see your smiles it just makes my day alot brighter
brothers: GeraldLucifer, NelsonLam - thanks for always being there for me and standing by me even when i make mistakes at times. i noe i'm not the best brother you guys can have but i'm really doing my best and i really hope i'm not disappointing you guys.
familyfriends: NancyTay, JuneTeo - it's already so common to see u guys at my place. trust me you guys are treated like family already. thanks for always helping out with things at home :)
to my dearest friends i've known since my secondary days AudreyLow, CheeWen, JacksonGoh - time really flies. we all have grown up and have a slice of life we all deserve. i really appreciate the time and effort all of you put in to meet up with me and have fun. to audrey, thanks for always inviting me to clubbing. even if it's not your birthday we still always end up having lotsa fun. to jackson, thanks for the mahjiong sessions. anytime for you man, always remember that. to cheewen, the small boy has grown up to be an officer already. dun play play ar. brother all i can say is we'll meet up soon dun worry haha.
to the people i missed hanging out with since poly days yrOnes: Alfee, Eanti & Line - i'm really sorry i haven been asking you guys out. i definitely will this time round. i'm hoping to see u guys at my place tmr! really miss the hangouts at orchard and i haven got my photos from our last meet up at shaw tower tcc.
yrTwos&Threes: Sheryl, Joyci, Andrea, ChunZheng, QuanLong, YuLin, Edward - my deepest apologies for not being able to find time to hang out. more importantly i find myself on duty on days sheryl do ask me for a gathering. i really hoped i could be there. thanks for everything since poly days. until now i believe my poly days wouldn't have been so fulfilling and wonderful if not be you guys.
to my juniors i've known since my secondary days bnss: ChanWei, MingSheng, ZhengYun, Mandy, LinHo, WeiJian - even though my mom hates you guys for messing up my house on MingSheng's birthday, but i really enjoy hanging out with all of you. Miss the mahjiong sessions and times we would spend in ZhiHan's house. I know now its harder to get everyone together, as least thats wad LinHo & I always feel when we try to plan something, still i really am hoping for another gathering soon!
bnssBBall: WeiJie, QuanLiang, HoongKit, JunXiong - i know now we seldom meet up except for the occasional mahjiong sessions at shawn's house. still, thanks for the company at weird hours of the day. and i promise we'll find time for another session soon :)
jyss: ChunYang, Jeremy, ZiMing, YiMing, Terence, Ivan, LiangJie - i really appreciate all the efforts in organizing the gatherings. the meals and mahjiong sessions always keep me great company and provide me with great joy and laughter. althought the habit of always being late makes me feel as if time did not pass since secondary school days but still trust me when i say i'm enjoying every minute of it.
to my dear camp mates at SAFAC GSAB PAD DCC: Joeven, JiaHao, NicholasWu, AlvinGoh, Viresh, DaveTeng & my beloved upperstudy who ORDed, DicksonKoh - i can't really thank you guys enough. i hope you guys understand that sometimes at work, due to exposure to stress environment i tend to be not me in these moments. do forgive when i'm having such moments. i really appreciate how all of us spend time having fun in the midst of work and that always make me feel proud as part of the dcc team. to joeven & alvin, thanks for the walks down to the cook house and the drive homes. really appreciate the fun and laughter you guys inject into the group. to jiahao, i noe i can be hard to understand at times. but dun worry too much about it when it comes to work you can always trust me to be there to help out. to viresh & dave, thanks for the guides and ah lau session in the morning. to dickson, i really can't thank you enough. the effort you put in to make sure i noe wad i need to noe before you ord is amazing and i really appreciate the lunch and lemon tea you would buy back for me whenever you go out to eat with the rest.
DIST: JordanLo, Aashvin, KadenPhua - trust me when i say you guys make my day in camp. alot alot alot of times. dcc to me has an anchor of being a stressful environment, it's a place where i can't get some relax time or quiet time. but everytime i walk pass one of you, especially when aashvin does something funny and dramatic, it always brightens up my day a little. to aashvin, continue to do wad you do best. all the drama is quite entertaining you noe. haha. to jordan, thanks for putting up with all the crap and the random msgs at weird times that most of the time disturbs you when you are resting. forgive me for that. still i really do enjoy the hangouts, meals, drinks and desserts we have. to kaden, i remember how jordan keep saying that you're a nice guy and ask me to ask you out too. now i noe this for a fact myself and dun need jordan to remind me anymore. haha. thanks for always being so nice and never fail to put up a smile on your face.
ClusterOne&Two: DamianTan, GlenNew, GywnChan, NicholasTan (and all sect coms who helped out in the i know very tiring at times TOs) - guys, thanks so much. to some pple, the fact that you guys are in cluster means you guys have to do the ground work. it's fated. but to me, i see your job as the most admirable. it's not easy to do wad you guys do. i'm doing my best to let the tension between cluster and dcc relax a little and i hope you guys can feel it. sorry for letting you guys have the impression that seeing me means got something bad. to damian & glen, thanks for the times you guys stood by me and helped out with alot of last minute things. i noe somehow i always look for you guys when there's shit. still i hope you understand that is because i know i can trust you guys and have faith in your decisions.
to my passionate and dedicated coaching friends BenjaminOng, Amin, JulianOng, DeJun, CamillusOng, YuYuan, JiaYu, CherylLiew, BryanBay, LiFen, Kristy, Kyrie, Theresa, AnHong etc etc etc - thank you guys for everything in the pass year. everytime i'm around i can always feel the place filled with so much fun and laughter. camp's gonna be boring if not for you guys. to those who drive in this group, thanks for putting up with my ridicules requests about driving home and out to places. i will get my license sooon not to worry.
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on a lighter note... thanks guys for everything you guys have done. each individual have made a difference in my life and i appreciate all the good times, as well as bad times, we had with one another. it is through such great times that i learn to trust and love the pple around me and through the bad times that i learn impt lessons on many many aspects in life. thank you for playing your unique part in shaping me into a better person and certainly can't thank you guys enough for the contributions and efforts you guys have put in to maintain this relationship.
it's chinese new year, so let me wish you and your family a prosperous new year ahead. may all your wishes come true in this new year.
WHO YOU ARE MAKES A DIFFERENCE trust me, you did in my life :)
sometimes if you don’t risk anything, you risk even more 9:18 AM
Saturday, February 13, 2010
like i said gerald can turn out to be an inspiration at times
oh well i'm officially lost for words it's the new year, well the eve of it i'm suppose to be having fun in fact all of us should be so as long as everyone's happy with their life i just i should be too haha
and to the people that i disturbed through msn and sms last night sorry man had a little too much to drink feeling abnormally high too so ya have fun guys this chinese new year!
BIG City Life!!! i dunno wad some pple are thinking so FUCK them i have other things and better friends to attend to
sometimes if you don’t risk anything, you risk even more 3:38 PM
Friday, February 12, 2010
this is indeed a rare feeling today is the kind of day i'm feeling very relaxed very carefree fuck the troubles, screw the worries!!! haha... just have fun walking around, doing shopping
the day started off with joeven picking me up at my house that meant that i din have to take the bus get stuck in the jam all the way to camp that started the day in the right course
next the officers decided to make my day better by appealing to higher authorities to let us go on off in the afternoon well of coz which i did and yeah that was great it was shopping the whole afternoon visiting joeven's abalone shop slacking at maple slap creamery have desserts and tea at ministry of food wow just in short a hell of a great time
i found a great way to spend my week nights next time bugis suddenly seem so appealing after i joined membership at MOF today movie at iluma, go kino get books den dinner + desserts at MOF WOOHOO!!!~ getting excited already!!! haha
now? i'm just being very random not moving in sync neither according to the rhythm oh and i'm being punished now for not being able to decide wad to do in the night clubbing was cancelled thanks to damian who backed out, mahjiong was too and can't find anyone to head to the ktv haiz shit happens la ya haha
BIG City Life!!!
sometimes if you don’t risk anything, you risk even more 10:33 PM
Thursday, February 11, 2010
for some reason i fell in love with this song...
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Need You Now by: Lady Antebellum
picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor reachin for the phone cause I can't fight it anymore and I wonder if I ever crossed your mind for me it happens all the time
it's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now and I don't know how I can do without i just need you now
another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before and I wonder if I ever cross your mind for me it happens all the time
it's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now and I don't know how I can do without i just need you now
guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin at all it's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now and I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now and I don't know how I can do without i just need you now i just need you now ooo, baby, I need you now
BIG City Life!!!
sometimes if you don’t risk anything, you risk even more 6:27 PM
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
for all the times i tell myself and others tmr will be a better day it's just not happening this time
camp has been tiring and frustrating all at the same time i'm not use to know understand what others are thinking i'm not use to not being able to work with others but it's all happening... but even is even all the stepping all over me all that bullshit has to stop i swear i have my limits too
i find myself feeling so lost and confused it makes me feel bad not being about to help but it's so much worst when i do my best to yet things are not improving
at the end of the day i just wanna know that i did my best
BIG City Life!!! just talk to me when you want to...
sometimes if you don’t risk anything, you risk even more 9:18 PM
Sunday, February 7, 2010
no more clubbing when i'm not in a good mood...
THE TRUTH IS i dun remember how i got home yesterday and that sucks :)
BIG City Life!!! wasted... hangover... FML
sometimes if you don’t risk anything, you risk even more 2:24 PM
Saturday, February 6, 2010
FRIEND(adjective) the word describes the following: 1. FRIEND means no asking 2. FRIEND means no reasoning 3. FRIEND means just believing
more importantly... 4. FRIEND is that who never believe in the last 3 alphabets of "FRIEND"
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i need some air i'm not sure wad's going on but i noe someone must do something to fix it
its a tiring day yesterday doing duty and it wasn't as enjoyable as i thought i would be today at least up till now too many things happening and i wasn't ready for it
that sucks... but i'll handle all those after my rest :)
BIG City Life!!! i hope i'm not trusting the wrong person here...
sometimes if you don’t risk anything, you risk even more 7:09 PM
Thursday, February 4, 2010
it doesn't interest me wad you do for a living i want to know wad you ache for and if you dare to dream for wad your heart's longing
it doesn't interest me how old you are i want to know whether you will risk looking like a fool for your dreams and adventures of being alive
it doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon i want to know if you touched the centre of your own sorrow if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shriveled and close from fear of further pain i want to know if you can sit with pain without moving to hide it, fade it or fix it... i want to know if you can be with joy if you can dance with wilderness and let ecstasy fill you without cautioning us to be careful, to be realistic...
it doesn't interest me if the story you're telling me is true i want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself if you can bare the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul if you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy i want to know if you can see beauty even if it's not pretty everyday and if you can source your own life from its presence i want to know if you can live with failure and still stand at the edge of the river shouting 'YES' to the silver of the full moon
it doesn't interest me where you live or how much money you have i want to know if you will stand in the centre of the fire with me and not shrink back
it doesn't interest me where or wad or with whom with you have studied i want to know wad restrains you from the inside when all else falls away i want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in these empty moments
BIG City Life!!! it's not who's gonna let me but who's gonna stop me...
sometimes if you don’t risk anything, you risk even more 7:43 PM
Monday, February 1, 2010
it's 12.20am less than half an hour to my last post but a random click on facebook made my day
marx comment on facebook: "never make the same mistake twice. they are so many new ones, try a different one each day!"
BIG City Life!!! whenever we are uncomfortable with something, whenever we're getting frustrated, tight, worried or even angry, we're provided with an awesome opportunity to grow...
sometimes if you don’t risk anything, you risk even more 12:21 AM